I was told multiple times today that I was good at summing something up in a few words. It’s something I’m relatively good at.
But life, contrary to my title cannot be encapsulated like that. This crazy ride were all on has no real rulebook. Plenty of people have written ones either with ink or blood, but ultimately it’s up to all of us to find our own way.
2014 was not the greatest year for yours truly. Well the last couple years have been the roughest of my life.
My dad was laid off
I left college without a degree
Left a job I loved that I had for 7 years
Started a new job
Quit said job after a few months(first time ever quitting a job without another one)
Went without work for about 4 months
Sank to a low I hadn’t known possible…
And then I got a break and landed a job with my uncle doing drywall. The best part, since my car had also stopped running and needed a new engine, was he lived next door and I could catch a ride with him. That was 7 months ago, the end of may. I’m still working with him but it’s been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, physically and mentally for various reasons I need not elaborate on.
The thing is, construction is the last place I could have seen myself a year ago. But I’ve learned a lot, and incredibly I’ve gone from about 220 lbs down to 160. I’m in better shape than I’ve been in a long time.
Oh and there’s one thing I forgot to mention. My house, well my dad’s house is going to be foreclosed. Soon, who knows when they will come and take it. It’s kind of nerve wracking not knowing when it might happen. Since my dad hasn’t worked in a couple years he couldn’t pay for the house. He moved to his dad’s house about 6 months ago because he is getting older and less independent and lived alone since my grandmother died. So I, in an effort to help my father, took over the bills here. At least that was my intention. I quickly realized that I couldn’t cover all of them on what I was making. So I did what I could to keep the lights and water on and food in the fridge. And I’ve done it…for myself and several others. But now a big decision looms and I am totally lost as to what to do.
I’m tired and have to be up around 4am and I realize I’m just rambling on now.
Life cannot be summed up, it cannot be contained. So much beauty, tragedy, pain, experience, and love is contained in each of our lives. It can only be felt, lived. It demands to be felt. To end on a positive note the hard things I’ve dealt with have really made me have to grow up and take responsibility. I can say I’m truly proud of what I have accomplished however small it may seem despite life kind of throwing a bunch at me at once.
The someone who is willing to admit they’re wrong is the someone who has the potential to learn anything. A wise person said that and I thought it was worth sharing, so farewell, and if you made it this far congrats. ☺