I need a change of scenery

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Sitting on the floor in my room, waiting for my café du monde to brew in my cheap little 4-cup coffee maker. I keep it in my room now, along with most of what I need to have coffee so as to avoid leaving my room as much as possible in the morning. You ever feel like a prisoner in your own home? Kind of a drag.

I am just about at the end of this chapter in my life. I can feel it, taste it, and I crave it. But the fear is holding me back. The ever present fear of the unknown.

The pacific northwest is calling my name and it keeps getting louder and louder. My cousin and his wife (two of the greatest people I know) live there. I talked to him yesterday and he mentioned his wife could probably get me a job at her catering company waiting tables. At this point, I would be willing to do just about anything, as long as it would get me out of this place.

I feel like I’ve been in the same place for ages, walking the same stretch of ground, driving the same stretch of road and I’m ready for a drastic change. I’m ready to travel and see the world, and if I fail, then I fail. But I have to at least know. I have to at least give it a shot. Who knows, these posts may soon be posted from somewhere in Washington or Oregon. Keep an eye out.

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Know Thyself

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I’ll probably never make a cent from this blog, and honestly I’m fine with that. I believe anything worth doing in life should be done because of an inner drive to do it, despite any rewards or recognition you may receive. But lately, I’m wondering if this very integral part of my internal compass is hindering me at times.

What I mean is that if you always wait around for the “inner drive” to do things, then in periods of your life where those drives are not as strong, you may be doing a lot of sitting around and waiting. Luckily, like most things, our internal compass can be altered upon receiving new data. So, I’ve been thinking that rather than wait around until that desire to do something kicks in, I need to start stepping out and acting, trusting the process so that something can happen instead of nothing.

What I’m doing at this moment is a perfect example. I have been sitting around for weeks telling myself, “I need to start blogging again.” But that’s just it, I kept leaving it at that. I kept looking at other people’s blogs, following blogs, commenting, liking, anything but actually write a new post.

Until, something clicked. I somehow knew, what I’ve always known, and just keep forgetting. You just have to keep swimming. You will find the strength/courage/inspiration along the way, at each obstacle you face. Or you will turn and run, but you cannot get past it unless you press forward. So, to the new friends I’ve met here, and any old ones still following, I’d like to say…

Hi my name is The Reticent One, but I go by several aliases. I am not a blogger who knows his niche, necessarily. I do not have a specific target audience, or even a specific purpose here at my little corner of the internets. But I’m still working on it, like a lot of other things. What I do have to offer here is a sincere desire to better myself through a give and take exchange with other thoughtful and enlightened individuals. And if that sounds like you’re cup of tea, then lets brew a couple and have a conversation about sci-fi and religion.